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My heart is pounding.
My heart is pounding, I mean POUNDING.
I gave a ring and want to keep a jewel thats astounding.
Im about to get cheesy as fuck right now.
Im not obsessed, but my position is feetal.
And im still blessed that we could Come Together;
Like The Beatles.
Verily, I mean. Still I say unto you.
Now and forever you’re my beautiful rescue.
Your heart is sweet, and your values are rare.
You helped me make changes I never thought were there.
I only knew hate when we met.
I was far from selfless.
I tell you only of how much Ive been hurt;
But Im sure I deserved it.
When I really got to know you I fell in love with so many things about you, there were so many things that I took from you to improve myself, my capacity for love, my dedication to one, really you have only wanted to be with me ever since Ive known you. I really felt so loved and so lucky to have a girl with the sensitivity you have.
I always wanted true love. I told you I did. But I had never been shown anything true and good until you showed me YOUR love.
You love everything. Everything that is good I mean. I mean I really felt cared for when you spent hours trying to forcefully save me. No it didnt work but you have no idea how much of a role you played in my finally getting saved. You were my example for change, my guideline to be the Christian I wanted to be. I wanted ALL your values. Even if I never found God, I wanted to be able to go through life in the way you do it.
My heart WAS pounding, and I WAS trying to be poetic;
but now my legs are trembling, and I’m-
starting to Ramble On like Led Zeppelin.
When you smile I hear Angels cry from their right eye.
My stomach feels like Owl City with Fireflies.
I havent even ruined it yet.
Im not losing my cool or anything.
Im not “Knopeing” around.
And how could I be angry?
This is all too much for you and you’re under a lot of stress, I was asking you to leave a lot behind, and I want everyone to support this just as much as you do.
Would I say you lied to me when you said you love me? Hell No.
I would say that I lied everytime I said;
“No, I love YOU more!”
Im not saying I was lying when I said I love you with all my heart though.
See, when we met I didnt have much of a heart at all.
I mean I knew I had one, but I didnt know how to use it.
Then you showed me how to love things. Nobody ever listened-
Or cared what I had to say. But you did.
You are like an Orca.
I really wish we had watched that one together.
Sure its about a Killer Whale that destroys a town out of vengeance, but the whale watched his mate and future little one be aborted at sea. The Orca is monogamous. That means one mate for life. So far thats what you have done for me. You have ONLY loved ME. Nobody has EVER done that for me. So i had no idea what true love was until you came into my life and showed me unconditional love.
You waited for me, not even knowing if I would ever talk to you again. Im a changed man and I want to treat you the way you deserve to be treated and all of the sudden you decided you feel different. I am just so taken by surprise. The way you reacted when I gave myself away, the moments youve let me share with you are one of a kind, I just never thought you would be ending this so abruptly. It seems like you didnt even want to think about it or reconsider.
I am happy with who I am.
I finally feel like I dont have anything to prove to the world; because you are truly great and you made me feel great, so I have an opinion that matters.
I was so afraid this would happen even years ago when you were in my shoes. The way you acted back then and everything I kind of thought you might go through this phase. So heres what I plan to do. I want to give you all the space you need. Let you breathe, let you finish school, let you work, and try to keep our relationship in tact.
Everybody is judging you and making you feel unsupported but the only support I need is you. I really dont have any actual plans right now. I guess im just going to get through each day the same way you did when you were waiting for me. Maybe its my destiny to be in this position, but im comfortable here honestly.
You need me to not be selfish right now, Im going to be happy, and happy for you as long as you keep hold of your morals and keep making good decisions.
Our future and your future is literally in your hands. I want you to have the ring. I gave it to you to show how much i admire you. Not to force you to be mine, I really didnt think thats what I was doing, but now I kind of feel that way. If I need to SET YOU FREE, then I will set you free. If you want to share life with me and enjoy the simle things and be with someone who loves every little detail about you then hold onto it for dear life. Because when it comes to us, it would be an understatement to say the tables have turned. I gave you my commitment, you just shouldnt have said yes and let me share all those amazing moments with you if you were going to pull this out of nowhere. I know that your heart only intended good through everything.
I literally want you to be my Pheobe.
You have made Noah my Pheobe.
You have made family and just life itself my Pheobe.
I can live cause I finally know that there is some real good in the world. If I cant ever be yours again, I at least know theres a dim chance someone of your greatness will come into my life. And I can still use everything Ive learned from you to love and be great.
I Love you Holly Kaaren Lynch (Liberto? :b) <3
Your ManBug- Paxton Taylor Liberto
